What was I thinking?????

So much has happened over the last year and a half of my life and just when I think I have things figured out or am at a nice, normal spot in my life...the universe decides to shake things up on me. I've learned not to get too comfortable because when you do, something is just bound to happen to throw you for a loop.

I've made a lot of new friends over this last year or so, some of whom are more like my own family now than just friends. I've also parted ways with some who were at one time just like family but now I can't even call them friends anymore because too much has happened along the way to break those bonds we once had. I can't say that it is all their fault in those cases but I can safely say that in most of them, yep, they are to blame. To me, when you put your trust in someone and try to be good to them when everyone else seems to be turning their backs on them only to have them stab you in your back, they are definitely the asses here. But I'm not sweating those people because obviously, God had a reason for removing them from the picture, so that he could bring better, more true friends into my life. For that, I am so thankful.

My life is nowhere near perfect, and there are probably still a few more people who need to be excised from it. But it's all a process and will happen in it's own time. And I am extremely thankful for one person in particular who has come into my life and who has become such a big part of my heart that I hope they will never leave it. I won't say who this person is but I can say with all honesty that I love them more than words could ever express and would do anything in this world for them. I am not the type to open my heart too easily to someone new or to let just anyone in, but this person has earned a spot in my soul, not just my heart and I thank God every day for them.

I have battled with depression and anxiety for so long now that I thought I'd never come out of the darkness but I am finally starting to and pray that things will just continue to get better for me and those people I love and care about. All I want is to be happy and to have my family and friends be happy and to excel in whatever they do. If you are in those groups of people, I want to say that I love you all and thank you for being a part of my sometimes crazy, mixed-up life. <3